Thank you for your kind input! I am aware that all hands were played ok on both sides. It is just the result that hurts in that moment. To clear things up: I am not running under EV I just do not post the suckouts I spread around So in the end everthing is ok! Sometimes it is not only the pure probability and chances but also the context.
For example take the very last tourney of this months Scholar LB. I am defending some ITM place. I bet I am going to miss it with these key hands:
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PokerStars - 25/50 Ante 6 NL (6 max) - Holdem - 6 players
Hand converted by PokerTracker 4 (http://www.pokertracker.com/)
BTN: 55.92 BB
SB: 57.9 BB
BB: 58.7 BB
Hero (UTG): 59.76 BB
MP: 68.22 BB
CO: 56.4 BB
6 players post ante of 0.12 BB, SB posts SB 0.5 BB, BB posts BB 1 BB
Pre Flop: (pot: 2.22 BB) Hero has A♣ A♠
Hero raises to 2.5 BB, fold, CO raises to 7 BB, fold, fold, fold, Hero raises to 19 BB, CO raises to 56.28 BB and is all-in, Hero calls 37.28 BB
Flop: (114.78 BB, 2 players) 4♥ T♥ 9♦
Turn: (114.78 BB, 2 players) 9♥
River: (114.78 BB, 2 players) 6♣
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Hero shows A♣ A♠ (Two Pair, Aces and Nines)
(Pre 82%, Flop 84%, Turn 77%)
CO shows Q♥ Q♣ (Two Pair, Queens and Nines)
(Pre 18%, Flop 16%, Turn 23%)
Hero wins 114.78 BB
Not bad to start with in the 3rd hand!
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PokerStars - 125/250 Ante 30 NL (6 max) - Holdem - 6 players
Hand converted by PokerTracker 4 (http://www.pokertracker.com/)
BTN: 30.73 BB
SB: 10.76 BB
BB: 26.46 BB
Hero (UTG): 15.31 BB
MP: 15.91 BB
CO: 36.85 BB
6 players post ante of 0.12 BB, SB posts SB 0.5 BB, BB posts BB 1 BB
Pre Flop: (pot: 2.22 BB) Hero has T♦ A♦
Hero raises to 2 BB, MP raises to 15.79 BB and is all-in, fold, fold, fold, fold, Hero calls 13.19 BB and is all-in
Flop: (32.6 BB, 2 players) 8♥ J♠ Q♠
Turn: (32.6 BB, 2 players) 9♣
River: (32.6 BB, 2 players) 3♣
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Hero shows T♦ A♦ (Straight, Queen High)
(Pre 47%, Flop 34%, Turn 74%)
MP shows 9♦ 9♥ (Three of a Kind, Nines)
(Pre 53%, Flop 66%, Turn 26%)
Hero wins 32.6 BB
Of course you also have to win some flips to win tourneys!
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PokerStars - 125/250 Ante 30 NL (6 max) - Holdem - 6 players
Hand converted by PokerTracker 4 (http://www.pokertracker.com/)
CO: 30.61 BB
BTN: 10.14 BB
SB: 25.34 BB
Hero (BB): 32.6 BB
UTG: 0.6 BB
MP: 36.73 BB
6 players post ante of 0.12 BB, SB posts SB 0.5 BB, Hero posts BB 1 BB
Pre Flop: (pot: 2.22 BB) Hero has Q♦ K♦
UTG calls 0.48 BB and is all-in, fold, CO raises to 2 BB, fold, fold, Hero calls 1 BB
Flop: (5.7 BB, 3 players) 3♥ Q♠ K♣
Hero checks, CO bets 2 BB, Hero calls 2 BB
Turn: (9.7 BB, 3 players) T♦
Hero checks, CO bets 6.85 BB, Hero raises to 28.48 BB and is all-in, fold
River: (23.41 BB, 2 players) J♣
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Hero shows Q♦ K♦ (Two Pair, Kings and Queens)
(Pre 64%, Flop 96%, Turn 100%)
UTG shows 6♦ 5♣ (High Card, King)
(Pre 36%, Flop 4%, Turn 0%)
Hero wins 23.41 BB
Not sure about this one. I should have knocked out this guy (maniac) by letting him bluff all day long and just call down? In the end he would have shown me A4o FTW?!
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PokerStars - 125/250 Ante 30 NL (6 max) - Holdem - 5 players
Hand converted by PokerTracker 4 (http://www.pokertracker.com/)
BB: 19.52 BB
UTG: 9.9 BB
CO: 24.6 BB
Hero (BTN): 44.41 BB
SB: 37.59 BB
5 players post ante of 0.12 BB, SB posts SB 0.5 BB, BB posts BB 1 BB
Pre Flop: (pot: 2.1 BB) Hero has A♠ K♦
fold, fold, Hero raises to 2 BB, SB raises to 6.5 BB, BB raises to 19.4 BB and is all-in, Hero raises to 44.29 BB and is all-in, SB calls 30.97 BB and is all-in
Flop: (94.94 BB, 3 players) A♣ J♠ K♥
Turn: (94.94 BB, 3 players) 9♥
River: (94.94 BB, 3 players) T♦
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SB shows A♥ A♦ (Three of a Kind, Aces)
Main Pot [58.8 BB]: (Pre 76%, Flop 85%, Turn 90%)
Side Pot#1 [36.14 BB]: (Pre 94%, Flop 99%, Turn 100%)
Hero shows A♠ K♦ (Two Pair, Aces and Kings)
Main Pot [58.8 BB]: (Pre 5%, Flop 0.4%, Turn 0%)
Side Pot#1 [36.14 BB]: (Pre 6%, Flop 1%, Turn 0%)
BB shows Q♣ Q♦ (Straight, Ace High)
Main Pot [58.8 BB]: (Pre 19%, Flop 15%, Turn 10%)
BB wins 58.8 BB
SB wins 36.14 BB
In the vacuum this is a shove all day long. Especially with the maniac in the hand. So why the hell does SB have to wake up with Aces here especially when I am blocking them.
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PokerStars - 150/300 Ante 40 NL (6 max) - Holdem - 6 players
Hand converted by PokerTracker 4 (http://www.pokertracker.com/)
BTN: 48.48 BB
SB: 7.22 BB
BB: 20.3 BB
Hero (UTG): 5.58 BB
MP: 10 BB
CO: 41.77 BB
6 players post ante of 0.13 BB, SB posts SB 0.5 BB, BB posts BB 1 BB
Pre Flop: (pot: 2.3 BB) Hero has J♠ J♥
Hero raises to 5.45 BB and is all-in, fold, CO calls 5.45 BB, fold, fold, fold
Flop: (13.2 BB, 2 players) 7♣ 6♣ 2♣
Turn: (13.2 BB, 2 players) 5♣
River: (13.2 BB, 2 players) 2♠
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Hero shows J♠ J♥ (Two Pair, Jacks and Twos)
(Pre 68%, Flop 81%, Turn 72%)
CO shows A♠ 8♠ (One Pair, Twos)
(Pre 32%, Flop 19%, Turn 28%)
Hero wins 13.2 BB
With this one hope got back!
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PokerStars - 150/300 Ante 40 NL (6 max) - Holdem - 6 players
Hand converted by PokerTracker 4 (http://www.pokertracker.com/)
MP: 48.22 BB
CO: 6.45 BB
BTN: 20.83 BB
Hero (SB): 12.07 BB
BB: 9.73 BB
UTG: 36.05 BB
6 players post ante of 0.13 BB, Hero posts SB 0.5 BB, BB posts BB 1 BB
Pre Flop: (pot: 2.3 BB) Hero has J♠ 5♠
fold, fold, fold, fold, Hero raises to 11.93 BB and is all-in, BB calls 8.6 BB and is all-in
Flop: (20 BB, 2 players) A♥ 9♠ K♥
Turn: (20 BB, 2 players) 4♥
River: (20 BB, 2 players) T♠
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Hero shows J♠ 5♠ (High Card, Ace)
(Pre 17%, Flop 7%, Turn 0%)
BB shows Q♦ Q♣ (One Pair, Queens)
(Pre 83%, Flop 93%, Turn 100%)
BB wins 20 BB
Hope? Right in your face!
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PokerStars - 150/300 Ante 40 NL (6 max) - Holdem - 6 players
Hand converted by PokerTracker 4 (http://www.pokertracker.com/)
UTG: 48.08 BB
MP: 6.32 BB
CO: 20.7 BB
Hero (BTN): 2.33 BB
SB: 20 BB
BB: 35.92 BB
6 players post ante of 0.13 BB, SB posts SB 0.5 BB, BB posts BB 1 BB
Pre Flop: (pot: 2.3 BB) Hero has J♣ A♣
fold, fold, fold, Hero raises to 2.2 BB and is all-in, fold, BB calls 1.2 BB
Flop: (5.7 BB, 2 players) 3♦ 6♣ T♥
Turn: (5.7 BB, 2 players) 2♣
River: (5.7 BB, 2 players) A♥
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BB shows 5♠ 2♥ (One Pair, Twos)
(Pre 33%, Flop 34%, Turn 66%)
Hero shows J♣ A♣ (One Pair, Aces)
(Pre 67%, Flop 66%, Turn 34%)
Hero wins 5.7 BB
Ok maybe there is some small chance?
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PokerStars - 200/400 Ante 50 NL (6 max) - Holdem - 6 players
Hand converted by PokerTracker 4 (http://www.pokertracker.com/)
UTG: 22.08 BB
MP: 29.35 BB
CO: 14.25 BB
Hero (BTN): 1.1 BB
SB: 10.85 BB
BB: 64.2 BB
6 players post ante of 0.13 BB, SB posts SB 0.5 BB, BB posts BB 1 BB
Pre Flop: (pot: 2.25 BB) Hero has 3♥ K♥
UTG calls 1 BB, fold, fold, Hero calls 0.98 BB and is all-in, fold, BB checks
Flop: (4.22 BB, 3 players) 4♠ 3♦ 4♥
BB checks, UTG bets 1 BB, BB raises to 4 BB, UTG calls 3 BB
Turn: (12.22 BB, 3 players) J♦
BB checks, UTG bets 5.11 BB, BB calls 5.11 BB
River: (22.45 BB, 3 players) 5♣
BB checks, UTG bets 11.84 BB and is all-in, BB calls 11.84 BB
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UTG shows 6♣ 4♣ (Three of a Kind, Fours)
Main Pot [4.17 BB]: (Pre 34%, Flop 91%, Turn 100%)
Side Pot#1 [41.95 BB]: (Pre 45%, Flop 96%, Turn 100%)
BB shows T♠ 3♠ (Two Pair, Fours and Threes)
Main Pot [4.17 BB]: (Pre 25%, Flop 4%, Turn 0%)
Side Pot#1 [41.95 BB]: (Pre 55%, Flop 4%, Turn 0%)
Hero shows 3♥ K♥ (Two Pair, Fours and Threes)
Main Pot [4.17 BB]: (Pre 41%, Flop 4%, Turn 0%)
UTG wins 46.13 BB
No! Because the maniac decides to go with crap.
BTW hand two to six where played within nine hands